It is seemingly ironic that i decided to 'write about my experience in the Middle East' now. This is for two reasons; first was mentioned in my previous blog (i've been here nearly 6months why start now?) - second and one that was an afterthought of this blog - was that i am now planning to leave the middle east in a months time. Better get writing quick eh?
Last week allowed me to experience my first feelings of sadness that i will be leaving this place, i have grown to love Palestine and the people. I have made so many friends, who inshaAllah will stay in my life a long time.
This feeling has now developed into more of a philosophical attitude to my time in Palestine. I have now created a pseudo-existentialist mindset. Namely why am i here? It has been a question i have pondered, left to one side because my head hurt, then re-pondered all over again. I'm not trying to get all 'Hegelian' on your ass - and ask 'why are we all here'. But the shock of booking my tickets away from this place, allowed me to shift into almost a zen-like state (can you stop laughing at the back). Ok, maybe you won't find me up a mountain telling westerners the secrets of the Universe - but what i have begun to realise is that my life is, well, OK, and that i may, just may have found a little place in the world - namely Falasteen!
The treatment of the Palestinian people is nothing short of barbaric, the violence set upon them manifests itself in so many disgusting ways - ways that the rest of the world are unaware of. I therefore feel i would greatly do myself an injustice if i walk away from this place now - unfulfilling my desire to help in whatever small way i can. Whether that is through resolution, advocacy or merely just showing people around the world the beauty of Palestine.
My zen-like attitude also added a final line 'therefore i must plan to return very soon', which of course i will, afterall it would be rude to upset my zen now wouldn't it?
Next Week - Semantic Paradox in Machiavellian Art.
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